Responding to Change

Yesterday and today I've been aware of the empty pasture outside our window. I find it disorienting especially with Murdoch's recent passing. I told Dave how looking at the pasture makes me feel. He told me he hasn't noticed the pasture, he notices the empty dog bed by the wood stove. When I think of Murdoch I feel love more than loss. I do miss him awful. However, I'd been preparing myself for the day when it became too hard to be Murdoch. It was extremely difficult to let go, but when I put a hand on my heart I feel him there and know we did right by him.